Babbles of a Lover and a Fighter

In true Nicolle fashion, I have pretty much dropped off of the face of the earth blog-wise.  Why?  Who knows.  I could make up a bajillion excuses, but it all boils down to my tendency to be very excited and gung-ho about hobbies in the beginning then it petering out after an unforeseeable amount of time.

The general hobbies that have stood the test of time so far in my years of being alive are sports and artsy things.  My current drugs of choice are Crossfit, flag football, and (of course) photography.  And although I feel great love for these things in my life, I recently balked when faced with the questions, “What are you passionate about?  What is in your life that you can’t live without?”

Well, that second part is easy.  Air.  Food.  Water.  A roof over my head.  Family.  Friends.

But my passions?  If I absolutely couldn’t play a sport or carry around my camera for a year, I would say…okay.  And find a way to deal with it.  Maybe I’m just that type of person.

I guess when I take a step back from the tangible, there are certain things in my life that tug at my heartstrings, things that could be seen as a passion.  I have a uncontrollable urge to do well in everything I do.  I’m currently kind of obsessing over my career path and what I can do to play a part in helping people.  I enjoy…life.  And living.  I suppose my passion is life and living it.

And I’m sure this was from some greeting card or something, but it’s kind of become my life mantra:

Free your heart from hatred.
Free your mind from worries.
Live simply.
Give more.
Expect less.

That last thing is what gets me, though.  Low expectations are met more easily, but at the same time…how low do you really want to set the bar?  Does this apply mostly to people?  Or just life in general?  Also, I want to add “Have fun.” at the end.  Because if you’re not having fun, what’s the point…right?

Ah, life.  I feel like I’m standing at a crossroad.  And I can’t see past the next turn.  All I know are my tendencies, thoughts, feelings and those will be enough to get me where I want to be.